where did my genuine smile go?
replaced with this hole;
this empty eyed routine
i do with my face.
where did their love go?
replaced with those very
many questions
and aristocratic doubts.
where did my words hide?
the fountain of them
on nights as this
in them i drowned.
where did you go?
leaving her with a lump in the
chest region_
the cancer,of which
she died of a year or so later.
where was everything as they were
before we changed,
it's all different now_
everything is:
the cold, the heat,
the wind, the rain,
they all forget their season.
trees no longer sway,
perfumes forget their scent
the man who knew me once
has forgotten my name.
the spiders are no more web spinning,
roaches forget to scavenge,
pain itself forgets to hurt
and my worn eyes
forget the how to sleep:
so i sit awake at three fifteen a.m.
wondering when the whole world
turned this mad